Don't Hug Me, I'm Scared . . .

I'm what is considered a "confused" soul (some even say "distrubed").I enjoy thinking bout death. Have since 9th grade. Doesn't necessarily mean I want to off myself.
I can't always explain myself. I'm not too fond of who I am most of the time, I'm a Pessimist-but I get it if you don't get why, and I'm HUGE on Quotes: “None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free.” -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe. I Love Charles Bukowski, Ville Valo, Perttu Kivilaakso, Jared Leto, and Johnny Depp (in that order).
My current catchphrase/life motto!: Idgaf.


A thousand times rejected, not yet once accepted.


Heartbreaking and unstoppable failure drains the soul
of even the strongest of optimists.
Bitter hatred consumes us all in the end.

The Marathon, N. Imani Robinson

Telling me that every single one of my actions is wrong. Incorrect. Never to be repeated again.
“May I be myself?”
NO. Because “myself” is an abomination—it brings misery and pain. It’s all a joke: “Be yourself!”, “Never change who you are!”, “Stay true to your heart!”
Countless of contradictions live in your commands, your demands, your orders and your requests—consistency and equality now long-forgotten morals. I live by a strict code pulled out from What Perfect Children Should Do. Expectations set above and beyond; stop trying to mold me into who you wanted to be, but failed to become.
A thousand different answers for seven billion people, I’m looking for the Thousandth and First.

N. Imani Robinson, 2012.